Misted Love Rating: G Anime/Manga: Fruits Basket Pairing: Het. Hiro/Kisa Type: One-shot. Written: 18th January 2004 This is my first Hiro/Kisa fic, actually… first Fruits Basket fic! It’s all about Hiro’s POV. Thinking about his feelings for Kisa. Sorry for the crappyness. Really short. The fic is written by me; Emily, called Sakura-chan. But the characters Hiro and Kisa, plus the animé/manga Fruits Basket is not mine. It’s by the company that makes it. Don’t sue me. I don’t have any money! ~~~~~~~~~~ Why… why couldn’t I… why did I have to… why did I leave Kisa all alone like that… why… Why did I abandon her like that? And why during her most hardest times? When… when she was bullied… when Akito had beat her up… all I did was flee. Run away. Avoid her. I couldn’t face her after the time Akito had beat her up. I was a coward. A cowardly sheep. I ran away! It still bothers me. And then… then that…girl Tohru appears. She… she made Kisa talk again, and realize… she has people who care and love her. But… but what about me? I love her. Yes, I do… but… being the coward I am. I… I never admitted. I was happy just having feelings for her, living in a happy dream. Because being in love… felt so great. Whenever I saw her… my heart raced. I felt butterflies in my stomach. A wonderful feeling. The best in the world. It was like walking on clouds. Whenever I saw her face, whenever I saw her smile… when I saw her amber-colored eyes sparkle. It made me feel warm. It made my heart thump. Feeling blood race up to my face. A good feeling. But I just had to make a stupid mistake. I really had to… I’m disgusting. I told Akito. Why, I didn’t know. I… I wanted everyone to know. Because it was a great feeling. What… what did I do wrong? I didn’t understand at first. He just suddenly… he went mad. He hit Kisa. No… beat her up. Beat her bloody and sore. I hate him for that. I hate myself for telling. It’s my fault Kisa winded up hurt. If I never told… if I never felt this way. This would have never happened. I hurt Kisa. And it hurts me. Because I hurt the one I love. Then that Tohru… stupid pathedic girl suddenly appeared. It makes me uneasy to see them get along so well. Call it jelaousy… yes. So, I am jelaous. I admit. But Kisa… sometimes it seems like Kisa cares more for her than she does for me. But on the other hand… Kisa has some certain good qualities. She has a big heart, kindness and she is truly caring. She likes a lot of people and cherishes them all the same. Still… I am afraid. That she dosen’t like me back. I want to be close to her. I want to be in her company. To embrace her and feel her body against mine. To feel her arms wrapped around my neck, her head against my shoulder. Bury my nose into her hair, inhale her scent. Feel her breathe; that she’s truly alive and together with me. Just standing there together under the autumn night sky by the lamp post… wishing that the moment will never end. But I’m too afraid… to admit my feelings. I’m afraid of rejection. To be rejected, to have my wishes crushed and destroyed. My hope killed. It’s all misted love. And it’s tearing me apart. Not sure what to do. Desire to know, fear for the eventual consequences. But someday. Someday! I will tell her that… I love her. THE END ~~~~~~~~~~ <---Back